As promised, continuing my last post.
So God continued to prove that He takes care of things best!
Later the same week as that third-year/fourth-year mess, I was waiting for a response from a professor to approve my story plan. Our deadline for plan submission was at 5:00 pm. I had sent it in at 2:45. I expected a quick answer, or at least something by 5 o’clock, but the time came and went and I had to leave for our Friday evening service. I had expected to see something by the time we came home, but around 9:30 or 10:00 when I checked, there was still nothing from my professor.
So I sent another email, double checking which email account I was sending from, who I was sending the message to and how I had formatted my subject line.
Everything on my end was fine.
I went to sleep expecting to see a response in the morning.
Around 7:30 the next day I checked and I still had not received a reply so I was getting nervous and I started to worry about the plans I had for that evening.
I told my friend that I hoped to see her but I was dealing with a stressful situation so she agreed to pray for me.
Then I decided that since this was another situation I could do nothing to change, I gave it up to God and asked Him to deal with it.
Then I posted lyrics from “Whom Shall I Fear [The God of Angel Armies]” (by Chris Tomlin) as my Facebook status:
And nothing formed against me shall stand
You hold the whole world in your hands
I’m holding onto Your promises
You are faithful
You are faithful
That was just after 10 am.
I went to check my inbox and wouldn’t you know it, there was the approval I had been waiting for!
And then I had one of the best Saturdays of my life.
I met so many new people and truly had a good time, and I can only thank God for that.
God’s timing is actually just so mind-blowingly perfect. He does exactly what we need, exactly when we need it.
It makes me wonder why it’s so hard for us to trust Him sometimes.
To bring this all full circle, or back to my decision about baptism anyway, I’ve started on a new and exciting journey of actively growing in my faith. It’s hard, but it’s rewarding. Or rather, I’m just being blessed more and more.
God is really faithful, and He really cares! This is not an earth-shattering revelation or anything, but He has shown me that I can come to Him with any request, big or small, and He is listening! It’s something we often say, but I wonder how many of us have experienced this, and truly believe in His power, in our prayers and most of all, in His unfailing love.
That’s why I want to be baptized, as a marker for my decision to give everything up to God. I want to experience His love more deeply, and more frequently than I was before. I want to let Him into every part of my life. I want to die to my old self, even though my old self was a Christian.
It’s time to grow up and take responsibility for my faith. It’s time to mature as a woman and realize that I need to come to God as a child, completely dependent on Him, and trusting Him fully to take care of me.
I hope this can be encouraging to someone.
I truly believe that as easy as it is to say, praying fervently is really the best response to all our situations, good or bad.
Worried? Stressed? Stop that! Give it all up to God, your Father’s got your back!
Lonely? Cry out to Him and claim His love and comfort.
Feeling weak? Or helpless? Let Him be your strength!
Succeeding at work or in school? Praise Him for His favor!
New romantic relationship? Don’t shut Him out, praise Him as a couple and continue to ask Him for guidance!
When everything feels like it’s going well for you, remember to rejoice in Him! Sing, Dance, Laugh and Pray!
But when things get hard, know that He’s there for you. He loves you and wants you to come to Him.
It has been amazing reading the Word every day for the past month and a half. I wish everyone could do this. I wish I had started ages ago!
Anyway, I feel like I’ve calmed down a bit now, I’ve said what I had to say. I want to finish with one more thought that I’ve confessed to many of my friends already, but I have to keep reminding myself of. (Bonus point: When you’re convicted of something (as in, not a felony but when God has laid something on your heart) or when you’ve identified something you’re weak in, tell people so they can encourage you and keep you accountable!)
“If it’s God’s will, it’ll happen, despite my best efforts to ruin it. If it’s not God’s will, it’ll never happen, even if I do everything “perfectly.” Just trust in His plans, His timing, His direction, and everything that needs to be, will be.”
So friends, remember how much God loves you. Don’t shut Him out. In darkness, He is your Light! In the light, rejoice in Him!
“God is good, all the time! All the time, God is good!”
*tl;dr: I’m getting baptized not because I just came to faith, but because God is good and I want to mark the next leg of my journey with Him!
And no, I don’t know when or where the baptism will be yet.